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Sunday, December 17, 2006

My Baby Sister

Those of you who have read my and/or my husband's blog(s) have probably gotten a pretty good idea of what I am like. I amuse my loved ones. I can be very serious when it is called for; I ususally have strong words for subjects about which I am passionate, and I can be a real pain in the ass upon occassion. This is not unlike you, I presume. However, I just finished a phone conversation with my little sister. I don't get to talk to her as much as I would like, but today's conversation just epitomized her for me. It makes me realize just how true the "came by it natural" phrase is in our family.



My little sis has severe juvenile diabetes. All her life, it has been difficult to keep everything under control. I have seen her go blind from her levels being too high, but more often I have seen her go into "insulin shock." This is what happens when her glucose (sugar) levels go to low. It is a terrifying thing to witness. It's even worse to experience, or so she tells me. Thankfully, she has not had an episode in over 5 years. Until today, that is. She, like many of the people in my family, has an over-active work ethic (a relatively new development on her part). She sometimes pushes herself too hard. Once the EMTs brought her out of the woods, her first words were, "Grab the garnish for my chowder. It's burning." (She is an assistant chef of some sort. I'm not exactly sure what her current title is.) Her co-worker apparently replied, "Well, she's feeling better."



That isn't the part that really hits home for me though. It was my sister's account of what happened next that just had me in stitches.



"Well," she says to me, "first the paramedic was checking my respnosiveness. He asked me if I knew where I was. When I told him, 'yes,' he says, 'where?' I told him, 'Just like I tell everyone else, Hell. I'm at work, so I must be in Hell.' Then he starts telling me that I'd be cold and that I needed to drink juice and, etc. etc. etc. I told him that I was sick, not stupid. I have had this disease for over 25 years (since she was 2). They wanted me to eat a sandwhich to bring my sugar up, so they brought me a cheese sandwhich made of sourdough with the cheese over 1/2 inch thick."



"Okay," I say. "Wasn't your mouth already dry from the insulin shock episode?"



"Yep"



"So, you were effectively eating a glue sandwich."



"Pretty much!"



She goes on to tell me that they were putting I.V.s in her arm, but that they kept jabbing her. She said to them, "Christ, just let me do it. I've had 3 years of nursing school; I can guess just as well as you can."



Well, I am just laughing my butt off.



"Then," she says, "they can't get my fingers to bleed. So I have to take the stick from them and punch my own finger. I have 2 I.V.s in one arm and a sandwich in the other, but I stuck my own finger."





All of this is humorous ... every bit of it. But, not one single thing was surprising to me. That is just the way we are.





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Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Barnes and Noble University is closed

Okay. I have to admit that I didn't even know Barnes and Noble University existed until my best friend pointed it out. After she did, however, I took 2 classes that I really enjoyed. As soon as I finished these 2 courses, however, I received an email that said that it was changing from BNU to BNBC (book club). The book club idea is fine, they already offered several of those. But, I also took a writing course that was loads of fun. And, the great thing about BNU? All the classes were free. All you had to do was pay for the texts that you needed. Often you could simply get them from the library and have no cost at all. Now there are no classes, just book clubs (or reading groups). The classes that were offered varied from literature and writing to psychology, religion, science, history, etc.



Ah, well. Does anyone, who may possibly be reading this, know of anyother online source that offers free classes like that?





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Barnes and Noble University is closed

Okay. I have to admit that I didn't even know Barnes and Noble University existed until my best friend pointed it out. After she did, however, I took 2 classes that I really enjoyed. As soon as I finished these 2 courses, however, I received an email that said that it was changing from BNU to BNBC (book club). The book club idea is fine, they already offered several of those. But, I also took a writing course that was loads of fun. And, the great thing about BNU? All the classes were free. All you had to do was pay for the texts that you needed. Often you could simply get them from the library and have no cost at all. Now there are no classes, just book clubs (or reading groups). The classes that were offered varied from literature and writing to psychology, religion, science, history, etc.



Ah, well. Does anyone, who may possibly be reading this, know of anyother online source that offers free classes like that?





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Barnes and Noble University is closed

Okay. I have to admit that I didn't even know Barnes and Noble University existed until my best friend pointed it out. After she did, however, I took 2 classes that I really enjoyed. As soon as I finished these 2 courses, however, I received an email that said that it was changing from BNU to BNBC (book club). The book club idea is fine, they already offered several of those. But, I also took a writing course that was loads of fun. And, the great thing about BNU? All the classes were free. All you had to do was pay for the texts that you needed. Often you could simply get them from the library and have no cost at all. Now there are no classes, just book clubs (or reading groups). The classes that were offered varied from literature and writing to psychology, religion, science, history, etc.



Ah, well. Does anyone, who may possibly be reading this, know of anyother online source that offers free classes like that?





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Tuesday, October 24, 2006

There were even fewer of me before I got married


HowManyOfMe.com
LogoThere are:
16
people with my name
in the U.S.A.

How many have your name?

Not many of me


HowManyOfMe.com
LogoThere are:
80
people with my name
in the U.S.A.

How many have your name?

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Superman is gay, and I'm a Vampire. So what?

Superman is gay? Now, let's get serious.

Really. What is all this about? Why is one of the week's hot topics on Headline News about Superman being gay? My husband and I actually talked about this a little because I really wanted to know, "What?" and "Who cares?"

When I asked, my husband told me that part of this idea comes from the possibility that the gay community identifies with Superman. The principle he described is one that he read about in Superheroes and Philosophy. Superman was the first true superhero. All others were "based" around him, or at least the basic ideas he represented. However, Superman has always been different from other superheroes in one important aspect. Clark Kent is the "alter ego," who he becomes. Superman, the hero, is his who he was born as. That isn't true for others. Spiderman was born as Peter Parker. Batman was born as Bruce Wayne. Superman can only be truly himself under the right conditions. That, for so long, has been the way of life for the homosexual community.

Okay, that makes sense. That still doesn't mean that Superman is gay. And, what if he was?

All people identify with at least one hero. Heroes are necessary for personal and societal survival. People need to be able to identify with someone that others (often publically) look up to. We look for aspects it these people that we also see, or want to see, in ourselves. These idols can range anywhere from Superman (superhero), the Punisher (anti-hero/vigilante), or the 9-11 rescuers (real-life heroes). That is why we each like certain movies, books, television shows, or even musicians. We identify with characters or characteristics. That may also be why we dislike some of those same types of things.

Take me for example. I have always been one of more eclectic tastes. I am also quite liberally minded. I was always, as my husband tells me, more gothic than those around me. (And, by gothic I don't mean stapling my face, spiking my hair, and wearing flour-white makeup.) I never quite fit in anywhere, but I tried. In high school, my brother told me that one of his friends said to him, and I quote, "You know your sister is pretty nice, but she's a little too weird."

From the time I was a small child, I read all the time. I still do. I found intersting some things that my family and friends found morbid. So, to keep everyone from worrying and trying to fit me for a straight jacket, I only indulged in those interests when I was alone. I would watch the 1:00 am showings of Friday the 13th: The Series, Poltergeist: The Legacy, etc. Just a few months ago, my mother asked me, while laughing, if I remembered that I read about vampires and that kind of stuff when I was a kid. .... You can tell my mom hasn't really looked at my shelves in a long time. I have an entire shelf of books focused on vampires, faeries, werewolves, etc.

When I got to college, however, I met people that held interests the same as my own. I was even introduced to more things in the same genre that I still enjoy to this day.

So, what did I do? I became a teacher and moved to the Bible belt. In public, I have to hide many of my interests, at least the "unusual" ones. I even have to be careful about disclosing my religious and political views. After all, I don't want parents or community members to think I would be a poor influence on their children because I think differently than they do.

So, I still identify with the vampires. I have tastes that some consider morbid. (I have always been intrigued by abnormal psychology. I even minored in psych in college. So, now I find serial killers fascinating.) I feel that I have to hide my true colors (fangs) from so many people. And, the people that I can be myself around are few and far between. If there are more around here, I don't know about them becuase they are keeping quiet too.

So .... Superman is gay, and I'm a Vampire. So what?